The act of silence

Such a weird times to be alive.

I don't know... should I dress up or put a make up on? Will it help? I mean, it'll all end up in the pile of dirt and dust anyway. How should I prepare? Does it make sense to prepare? Or am I just overthinking it again...Am I going to chicken out as usual? Why do I always go through this... It's the same incredibly tiring process, the same loop of sh.t every time. 

Who am I even kidding.